Reasons I'll Never Know

Posted on: Dec 16, 2023

2 mins read

I lay on my bed, my back towards you.
With tears in my eyes, I cry silently,
Wandering what l ever did wrong.
Was it care I didn't give or love I didn't show?
All my attention I gave, I made you my very world.
I gave you all I had, even though it wasn't much.
I made for you my time, though mummy's girl I'm such.

But you decided to be busy.
Busy with school, busy with work, busy with your ex.
You said you love me, boy you are funny…
With the way you showed it, it was no denying it.
I tried my best, I even tried harder.
You tried your easy, you didn't try at all.

Even though you don't, me I still do
Whether or not you lie, my words are true.
And even when I try
The past remains the same.
I try to hide it, to not let it show.
Even though I'm good at it, the wounds heal slow.

You seem to let yourself out
Every time I'm being sent home.
You make me laugh, you make me smile
And then you make me cry.
I end up back in the operating room.
Tell me why oh why.

My love for you is the sweetest thing
And yet it hurts the most.
With tears in my eyes, I lay silently,
My back towards you, my mind pondering
What i ever did wrong?

Originally written: 26/01/2014

Summary:

The poem "Reasons I'll Never Know" is a heart-rending portrayal of a love that was not reciprocated in the same measure. The poet expresses the pain of unrequited love and the haunting questions that linger after the relationship ends.

Despite pouring love, time, and attention into the relationship, the subject remained distant and preoccupied with other aspects of life. The poet, once deeply connected, struggles with the pain of betrayal and the disparity in efforts. The emotional turmoil is captured in a mix of laughter and tears, marking the ups and downs of a one-sided connection.

The wounds may heal slowly, but the scars remain, and the poet is left to ponder the bittersweet nature of love. The title "Reasons I'll Never Know" encapsulates the lingering mystery of what went wrong, adding an additional emotional layer to the already complex emotional landscape.

Note: This summary was generated with the assistance of AI, based on the poet's guidance and insights into the poem's inspiration and meaning.

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