Reasons I'll Never Know

Posted on: Dec 16, 2023

2 mins read

I lay on my bed, my back towards you.
With tears in my eyes, I cry silently,
Wandering what l ever did wrong.
Was it care I didn't give or love I didn't show?
All my attention I gave, I made you my very world.
I gave you all I had, even though it wasn't much.
I made for you my time, though mummy's girl I'm such.

But you decided to be busy.
Busy with school, busy with work, busy with your ex.
You said you love me, boy you are funny…
With the way you showed it, it was no denying it.
I tried my best, I even tried harder.
You tried your easy, you didn't try at all.

Even though you don't, me I still do
Whether or not you lie, my words are true.
And even when I try
The past remains the same.
I try to hide it, to not let it show.
Even though I'm good at it, the wounds heal slow.

You seem to let yourself out
Every time I'm being sent home.
You make me laugh, you make me smile
And then you make me cry.
I end up back in the operating room.
Tell me why oh why.

My love for you is the sweetest thing
And yet it hurts the most.
With tears in my eyes, I lay silently,
My back towards you, my mind pondering
What i ever did wrong?

Originally written: 26/01/2014

Summary:

In the evocative poem, "Reasons I'll Never Know," the poet lays bare the intricate layers of heartbreak and the haunting specter of unanswered questions. As tears silently fall, the poet reflects on a love that wasn't returned in equal measure. Despite pouring time, attention, and love into the relationship, the subject remains distant, preoccupied with other aspects of life. The poet, once deeply connected, grapples with the pain of betrayal and the disparity in efforts. Laughter and tears become interwoven, marking the emotional turbulence of a one-sided connection. The wounds, though concealed, heal slowly, leaving the poet to ponder the sweetness and pain of love. The title, "Reasons I'll Never Know," encapsulates the lingering mystery of what went wrong, adding a emotional layer to the emotional landscape.

Note: This summary was generated with the assistance of AI, based on the poet's guidance and insights into the poem's inspiration and meaning.

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